I don’t know why I’m writing this other than to feel like I still exist… and to brush off the dust on my little webzone. I’m listening one of those Lo-Fi streams on YouTube the kids like so much and having a nice coffee. So the mood is right for me. Anyway, this is just more self-indulgence, as usual… It helps me, anyway.
It’s been a little over a year since I released Super Taco Crew to massive fanfare. Just kidding, actually it didn’t set the sales charts on fire. But I managed to scrape together a small sum of money from it. Enough for a new MacBook at least, so I’m pretty happy about that. (My old one had battery swelling and was getting long in the tooth).
I’ve been having somewhat of an identity crisis since the release of my visual novel. Do I keep going with this kind of thing? Or do I start something completely new? It’s an analysis paralysis that has kept me from being motivated to do much at all.
As Citan from my favorite game Xenogears says, “It is much easier to be given a place to belong than make one for yourself.” Things used to be so easy when I was on “the right track.” I think it’s hard being out on your own, especially when you’re a tiny creator.
I feel like I’m lost at sea, with no idea where to navigate. No landmarks, no guiding stars. In such a scenario, what would you do?
Anyway, I’m trying out a new thing where I stop navel gazing. I just move forward in a direction and assume that it will take me somewhere wonderful. Because that’s all I can do.
I’m working on a new thing, and taking baby steps. The character on this page is a little teaser for the New Thing. What could it be..?
Anyway, that’s enough from me. Thanks for reading.
-Decker